Sitting down to write this piece was mentally strenuous for me, not because I could not find words to express my hazy mind but I found it hard to put it out in the universe.
Yes, we all find it weirdly disturbing to explain our troubled minds to others or at times even to oneself.
This difficulty I presume comes from understanding our thoughts which are not always optimistic and untangle these feelings in front of people at the expense of feeling misunderstood, exposed and sympathetic.
Okay let’s address the elephant in the room which has been giving me identity crisis.
Yes, I am not ashamed to admit I do find a part of my self esteem coming from the fact that I identify myself as an individual with credence to my integrity, aspirations and selfhood which gave a sense to my existence.
Each individual is born and consistently grows with objectives to be fulfilled in their life which builds their personality and feeds their consciousness.
But why it has always been so hard for me to yearn for that identity which I wanted to so badly carve for my ownself.
All these years of education, experiences and adjustments has eventually fetched me another phase of life where I struggle every day to be seen as a being who can accomplish whatever I desire without being debriefed by the community.
The community here I indicate to all those insensitive humans around us in our families, friends, colleagues or even neighbours.
It’s exhausting to explain people why of everything you do in your life.
Isn’t it?
It is for me, and honestly it’s more bewildering to allow people arraign us to take decisions of our own lives.
The effect of which results in neglecting our identity, opinions and leading a miserable life.
You may find many people around us who are experiencing this identity crisis especially women because we are givers and we intend to give away our identity and desires to accommodate society’s norms.
Do we really need to let others steer our lives?
Let’s believe in our hearts, ambitions, opinions and risks needed to be taken to perceive our real selves, the one we should be proud of always.
Cheers to being uniquely ourselves.
Youaintheone 